Why...
Why did i so stupidly let the bench slip off my fingers?
Why did the bench have to land so hard on my toe?
Why did i have to get a contusion?
Why am i told that i have to be substituted?
Well, why not.
In fact i supposed i have to be glad that that happened, and not anything worst.
Part of my mind tells me one thing while another part tells me something.
People making the decisions for me goes both way...
and eventually i have to come to make the decision for myself.
As i'm healing, which i'm not clear whether i'm happy or not about, a stronger part of me tells me not to find the substitution, and instead to be mentally prepared to commit myself once more to the competition and to the team.
However, another part of me tells me that i am not prepared. Deep inside i want to be, but based on the situation i dont want to be.
I'm just not prepared, this sucky feeling...it just makes me want to quit sometimes.
I doubt i'll be able to screw my point into people like them. Gosh it just comes down to how did they even end up in such positions.
Enough said, my decision would probably depend on what God has installed for me. If my toe heals and i'm able to walk by Tuesday or otherwise then my decision would be made.
On a lighter note i've chanced upon this SJI Scout website, not sure whether got virus ornot.
Its really old, anybody have any idea which badge they're from?
http://www.angelfire.com/me/augiboy/scout.html